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Dawn’s first thoughts on applying Purrrrrfect Foundations
Dawn’s first thoughts on applying Purrrrrfect Foundations Nourish I don’t smoke or drink – I never have because I just don’t like it. And I
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Dawn did not have an easy start and life has been unkind to her in many ways. However, hers is not a tale of woe. She has lived a full life and continues to do so despite her being more fragile physically these days.
Her story and outlook on life can teach us all how to make the best of our situations and I hope that her strength of character and integrity shines through. Dawn is humble, honest and a straightforward individual with plenty of life-learned wisdom.
I mean it when I say that I believe I have had a horrible life. I am not looking for sympathy. I have made the best of my lot and I always try to treat others kindly. I do not believe that having a difficult time gives you the right to become a horrible person.I did not ask to be born and certainly did not ask for my Mother to die when I was young. I didn’t ask for my Father to be so horrible to me.
Family strife
My Father was a hard man, he had been in the Navy and seen many of his friends die.I suppose that had an impact on him and made him the way he was. I also don’t think he liked or wanted children. My parents didn’t have any more after me. He then became a long distance lorry driver.
I can’t remember much about my Mum or the way she died. I now know that she had polio and in those days it was thought to be contagious. My Mum was in bed and I wasn’t allowed into the room-I can still picture her there and me standing in the doorway. I suppose then she must’ve gone to hospital although I didn’t really know that at the time. She never came home again. I didn’t even know that she was ill because nobody told me anything. Actually, for years afterwards, right up until I was in my twenties, I thought that my Father had killed my mother. I really did believe that. My Mother sometimes went with my Father on his lorry journeys and I think I must have muddled things up in my head and thought that they went away in the lorry and my mother never returned. I don’t remember where I was when my mum was buried- probably at school. Nobody talked about it. I wish my Mum had lived. I know that my life would have been completely different if she’d survived because I know that she loved me. I’ve never heard a bad word said against my Mum but everybody said that my Father was a bloody nuisance.
After my Mum died, I lived with my Gran for three years. My Father lived with my Gran and Grandad for a while but he began to see a young girl, who was only sixteen and later became my step-mother. My Father would stay out until late at night. I remember thinking that he should be at home with me and I felt like he had just dumped me. My Gran was alright but she was afraid of my Father and when he eventually married the young girl and set up home in Helston, I had to go with him. I don’t know why he took me away from my Gran, I know that he never wanted me. It must have broken my Gran’s heart, she’d lost her only daughter and then, three years later her granddaughter was taken away too. I never said anything, you needed to be seen and not heard in those days. I was really shy back then, not like I am now.
The Next Chapter
I went to school and got on with life. I had a boyfriend and three days before my sixteenth birthday I was riding on the back of his motorbike. We were on our way to pick up some school books but never got there. A school of motoring vehicle took a bend too wide and crashed into my knee. I didn’t even fall off the motorbike but my leg was smashed up pretty badly. There were multiple fractures and amputation was discussed. Anyway, my leg repaired and I was able to continue life as before, the injury did not stop me doing anything at this time.
I had my first child at seventeen and had two children by the time I was eighteen. I wasn’t equipped to be a mother. I was still a child myself. We weren’t really taught about things like that in my day. I was naive. If I had known more I might not have had any children. I didn’t know what to do and I had nobody to turn to. My mother was gone and I had no sisters or aunts to call upon for help or advice.
A Working Woman
When the youngest of my three children started school, I went to work.I was in my mid-twenties and got a job as a driver for a local store. I had the use of a van for driving round to collect installment payments for the things people had bought. I loved driving and I took great pride in doing it well. I worked for a college for a while, serving student dinners and then got a job that took me all over the south west of Cornwall, from Land’s End to St Austell. I did this until I was made redundant after eleven years. I took a job in a shop but I had to give it up as standing for long periods of time was unbearable with my dodgy leg. I didn’t have any problems with my leg until I was in my late forties/early fifties but it now causes me constant pain. I do believe that if you suffer an injury like that when you are young, you are destined to have more trouble with it as you get older. I had a knee replacement four years ago and I have had nothing but trouble from it ever since. I am in perpetual pain and have to take painkillers. I am strict with myself about the amount of painkillers I take. I don’t think that it is sensible to put new knee parts on top of the old, damaged one and I also think that it is never a good idea to open up old wounds.
Relationships
My children no longer have any contact with me. I believe that I’ve been hurt enough in my life and it is now better to leave things as they are so I do not pursue them. I don’t want to be rejected again and I cannot undo what has already been done. The kids should never have stopped speaking to me, but its been years since I saw them.I haven’t seen my older son for over twenty years. He got married and his wife didn’t want him to see me anymore. He went along with whatever she wanted. I thought that I always had a good relationship with my younger son but I haven’t heard anything from him since last Christmas. No texts. Nothing.
I’m going to let them all go. I’ve managed without them for so long, I wouldn’t want them to come back now because I’m old. All my children, especially my daughter, are forever bringing up the past, they can’t let it go. I can’t do anything about the past and we’ve all done things that aren’t right but I say forget it, it’s gone, let it go it’s easier not to think or talk about it. I find it difficult to think that I have three children and not one of them cares – I can’t understand it. I feel that it has been like this for too long now and that I can’t do anything about it. I wouldn’t just go and knock on one of their doors because I don’t know what I would find or whether I’d be welcome. The same must be true for my son – he couldn’t come and knock on my door because he might be afraid I’d tell him to piss off! I don’t want to risk being told to go away so it’s better to stay here. I try to let the past go and wish them all the best.
Retirement Living and Stroke
My knee has gradually deteriorated and I used to fall down all the time. There were a lot of steps at my old house so I decided that I needed a change. I sold my house and bought a ‘retirement flat’. I got my crutch when I was sixty. In the beginning, I didn’t like using it, I was embarrassed about it and what people might think but it has been wonderful – I haven’t fallen down since I started using it and I no longer care about what people think. It’s much better to use a walking stick than be down on the ground – once I’m down there I can’t get up again.
I had been in my new flat for around five months when I woke one morning feeling really weak and unwell. I told my friend when she came round and a doctor was called. The doctor said straightaway that I must have had a stroke during the night. I was sent to Treliske where I had lots of scans and X rays, followed by six weeks of being looked after by carers as I was unable to do anything. I have been registered as disabled since then and I still find talking difficult.
I think it’s good if young people can find someone they trust to talk to but I also think that people are over helped these days. They should try to contain some of their miseries and angst and not over share. My advice is to listen to everyone but make up your own mind.
The Great Outdoors- and Dogs!
I have always been an active person and I like to get out and about. I go out rambling on my scooter and this has given me a new lease of life. I take my beloved chihuahua cross terrier, out everyday. I adore dogs and am fond of animals in general. My little dog is my life, my family really. I always do the very best for her, as I did for her predecessor. I have always had dogs and I feel as though I can understand them better than people. She is very well trained and I would love to do some agility classes with her if I was more able.
Straight Talking
You will always get the truth from me- whether you like it or not. I have no respect for liars and I would rather someone punched me in the face than told me a lie.
I am not interested in whingeing or gossip, perhaps this is why I prefer the company of men. I find most women to be bitchy and moany. I like to spend time with men because they are often less complicated and I can have a normal, relaxed day out with no fuss.
Beliefs
I believe in fate and that things are meant to be. I also believe that I did not ask to be brought into this world and that life isn’t fair. I have a friend who is an astrologist and I think that she is genuine. I used to see her regularly, I felt at home when I was there and the things that she said would make sense later on. It meant a lot to me when a Medium I went to see put me in touch with my Mum. I had to wait until I was almost sixty for that to happen but I will never forget it. The Medium came out with my mother’s name. Nobody could’ve known that and it meant the world to me to know that my Mother was with me. I can always feel my Grandmother with me, looking over my shoulder and I love that.
Life can be hard but we find a way around things and I believe that whatever happens will probably be for the best in the end. I believe in getting on with things and making the best of what you have. I speak to people but I don’t hassle them or offload my baggage.
I think that the world is very different now to how it was when I was growing up. I didn’t have anyone to talk to or help me but I think that has been good in some ways because I have had to learn how to help myself. It has made me who I am. I think it’s good if young people can find someone they trust to talk to but I also think that people are over helped these days. They should try to contain some of their miseries and angst and not over share. My advice is to listen to everyone but make up your own mind.
Dawn’s first thoughts on applying Purrrrrfect Foundations Nourish I don’t smoke or drink – I never have because I just don’t like it. And I
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